I've figured out that being a mommy is so much harder than I thought it was going to be. I realized what a sacrifice it would be for me. I just didn't realize how much of a strain it would be on my relationship. I guess that's why I find myself single with a toddler. I swear I could slap a bitch every time I pass through my closet and look at that wedding dress.
I'm so over thinking "if only I could stop loving him". I've resorted to hating him because it is the only thing to keep me from crying each time I hear his voice. The only thing worse than missing him is being horny as hell. I've fantasized about fucking in so many ways that it's probably unhealthy. I tried to have a loveless encounter to knock the edge off, but I couldn't go through with it. I don't know if I can ever go back to loveless sex. It's been 6 months since I've had sex and I think I'm going to go crazy.
I wonder if I'd be such a stressed out mommy if I were getting some dick.
You and I are pretty much in the same boat....
ReplyDeleteI was hoping that starting this blog would help to connect me to others going through similar situations so I'm glad to hear that even though I don't wish unhappiness on anyone.
DeleteOkay don't take this the wrong way, because I do empathize with your situation....but the title of this post literally made me laugh out loud.
ReplyDeleteA laugh is always good for the soul. I'm hoping that one day I can look back on my situation and laugh.
DeleteFeel your pain completely... color me the fool b/c we have been divorced for 7 years! Keep your head up and invest in another B.O.B.!
ReplyDeleteB.O.B.? What does that stand for?
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